Yesterday was a good day. A great day, even. I cared for my babies and knocked out all my day’s worth of work without a hiccup. I answered emails and phone calls while babies napped, ate and happily played. I engaged in intervals, showing them I was watching them and that they were cared for. They were generally happy, and I was generally calm as I navigated my full-time work from home job and being a full-time stay-at-home mama.
Today was a different story. The babies woke up a bit earlier than usual, and from the start let me know they weren’t happy about it. They’ve been grumpy and clingy and nearly impossible to put to sleep for nap. They have been uninterested in mealtime, and unhappy unless mom was on the floor with them in her lap while they played and sometimes still cried and nursed at their leisure. They attempted to unplug my work computer several times, threw their snack of a banana all over the floor, and screamed bloody murder at every diaper change. As I typed a response to an email, blinking back tears, trying to take deep breaths every moment they let me use my hands for something other than holding them, I realized I had reached my capacity for the day. And I looked back at yesterday (LITERALLY YESTERDAY) when I navigated the day so well, feeling accomplished and confident in my ability to be a good mom and a good employee. I even made every meal and went on a family jog with my husband and babies in their stroller!
How insane, in the world of parenthood, the contrasts of good days and bad. It almost makes you crazy, how grateful and happy you can be in a moment, with the next moment having you in tears trying to breathe away your panic because you simply can’t handle it all.
And so, I guess, here’s a word of encouragement if you’re a parent and you’re reading this. Or, even if you’re not and you’re simply just a human navigating all the ins and outs of life. Most of the time, you can do it. You truly can. And other times, maybe you can’t. And maybe you have to be done for the day. And other days, maybe you want to be done, but can’t afford to because there are mouths to feed and quotas to be met and so you trudge along to the best of your ability. And maybe that means you have a little cry as you lay in bed that night. And sometimes maybe you have to reevaluate your life and your choices and change some things if you’re able. And if you’re not able, maybe it means having a tough season but knowing this season isn’t forever. All that to say, in the
hard and difficult days, please do your best to remember that it is hard now but God willing, it won’t be forever. Please remember that, yes, especially within parenthood those bad days are ROUGH, but my goodness the good days are so so sweet. So, like we’re often reminded when we’re in a rough season regarding our faith to look back on all that God has done and trust in His faithfulness even though nothing in us feels good or full of faith, here’s your reminder that today may be rough and downright ugly, but don’t forget to look back on all the beauty found in better days, and rest assured you’ll have a good one again.
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